They say time 'heals'. Time heals every wound,but it doesn't heal the scars. Because scars still remains somewhere and there comes the pain 'hiding'. Just because you didn't see it,doesn't means it isn't ripping through the soul. It does,because pain does not need to be seen,but to be felt. And she felt it all throughout these years. Sometimes monsters are invisible and the painful demons attacks us from inside. Just because you cannot see the claws and the teeths, doesn't mean they aren't ripping through her soul.
You know what truly aches ? Having so much inside you and not having the slightest clue of how to pour it out. She feels the greatest pain in life is not to die,but to live in a body which fights to survive,with a mind that tries to die. She have seen and felt a whole lot, she have been at the lowest of lows. She feels the greatest pain in life is not to die,but to be forgetten. To see her dreams drowning,and to see the 'dead ends' approaching. What truly aches her is to see herself helpless,who cries herself to sleep everynight. Because every next morning she has to wake up to fight those same old invisible demons whose teeths and claws might not be seen by anyone,but they are the one's ripping through her soul. The greatest pain in life is not in seeing the soul die, but to see the 'dreams' die. The dreams that she lives for,she fights for and would straight away die for. This is what actually aches her soul and mind.
''She bled onto pages,
to spare the grief she was holding inside..
Blood mixed with her tears,her ink
Wove a desperate tale of another time..
As the pages climed towards the sky
the burn in her chest began to subside..
Till the pain lie dormant once more,
and the blood,ink and tears had nearly run dry''
